nuns in waves

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My mom (or maybe dad but I bet its my mom) got me a subscription to the Catholic Spirit (my home archdiocese's newspaper) to be delivered to me at school! SO CUTE! Also now I will get a weekly dose of ~Archbishop Nienstadt~, my number two priest crush, and maybe some Fr. John Paul Erickson bonus columns! EEEEEEE!
nuns in waves

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I love this little community of LJ-ers who are discerning vocations who are all friends with each other, because it fills me with glee when I see person A quoting person B. As much as I am not good at updating my LJ I always know if I read my friends page I'll find wisdom and goodness, so thank you all.
nuns in waves

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A few nights ago Iris (the 3.5 year old I'm living with) was throwing a fit so her mom put her in time-out in her room. And Iris started screaming about the door being locked and her mom, Frances, said, "Just because you can't open the door doesn't mean it's locked."

And I can't get that out of my head. I think that explains a ridiculous amount of my difficulties, in that when I fail at something, I feel as though God has locked the door, but really, truly, just because I can't open it yet doesn't mean it's locked.
nuns in waves

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Here's part of the e-mail I just sent my spiritual director, if I can still call him that as I have not heard from him in a month.

I've been trying to start working God into my daily plan like you suggested and I'm having a really difficult time. I also was not liking Theology of the Body (the parts I was reading just weren't calling to me at all) and so I've been neglecting my spiritual reading. But on a whim I picked up Interior Castle by Teresa of Avila and hopefully I can get myself back into it. I'm also still having trouble with the specific virtue (I think that's what you called it?) I feel like every problem I have is so big that I can't find only one small part to concentrate on, or when I do pick a small part, I don't even last a day, and it is very discouraging. I'm also going through some aridity, which the previous things probably are not helping, but in general, I'm trying really hard to get in the swing of things but just can't get back over that first bump.


So that's basically it right now, I just feel blah and sinful and bad and can't get myself going for the life of me.
nuns in waves

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God kicked me in the face today, namely, I walked 25 minutes (each way!) in the 95 degree heat to church, and the opening song was God of Day and God of Darkness aka my favorite song and it's just like... ok Lord you are right about me, and I know that I'm only happy when I'm with you, so I should just listen and be with you. But yet every time I fall away and am lukewarm but once I get back in church I know I'm happy. It's just a matter of I have to be stronger than the society I live in, and that is HARD.

I'm also becoming really attracted to the idea of head covering. Especially in church, but almost all the time. I don't want to wear a mantilla, but I'd be down with a different covering, such as this (which I might have gotten from someone on my flist. I don't remember. I also really want to get myself a veil. I feel like having a veil would be very helpful. This one is my favorite.

The problem with the veil is its obvious nun connotations and I don't want to be representing myself as a sister when I'm not a sister. The Jewish head coverings are much more 'stylish' in that I will likely be asked less questions about it, but if I start wearing them all the time, I feel like people will think I'm sick and losing my hair, and that's not something I want to be representing either. And I don't know how people would react if I said 'I just feel like I should be practicing head-covering.' I'm guessing not well. Maybe with a latter paycheck I'll get a headwrap and see how it goes. Any suggestions/advice?
nuns in waves

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Ganked from metanoia:

Never say to God “Enough”; simply say “I’m ready”.

- Blessed Sebastian Valfre




which just hit me like a brick. I've been going through hard core spiritual dryness, and I hate thinking or talking about it so I avoid it, but keep me in your prayers cause I'm having a really hard time. I haven't heard from my SD in about 3 weeks - he missed a meeting on the 21st of May and then was going to be out of town for a month but never contacted me about the missed meeting so I don't really know what's going on. And I feel like a heathen etc. etc. and it's just... not going so well, but hopefully things go better soon, once I settle into a schedule.
nuns in waves

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I got a letter from Archbishop Flynn today!!!!!!!!

I wrote him a letter a few weeks ago and he responded and it totally has made my day complete!!!